Mirror, Mirror thrown to the floor. I don’t want to be the me you made me out to be anymore. I will take myself and the baggage you granted me as far, far away as this broken record will take me. I just want to be accepted for the untamed version of me. All this sunshine and rainbows, riff raff, accountability and a dash of confused to the purpose most would post on the evening news.
This fairytale ending that wasn’t my promise to keep. Exploiting the parts of me that taught me how to play the card. So tired of creating a lie that compliments your narrative. All the while, belittling me so I would never show that side of me again. Never good enough and always room for improvement; always something I already knew.
I quit playing along as there pawn, fighting back with my words a long time ago. Nostalgia might kick me a time or two, approximation can weaken any one sided boundary. Repeating a cycle and ignoring their red flags. Couldn’t take watching the next generation speak years beyond there elders. I just couldn’t keep giving them the life I kept running away from.
I stand here happy as could be to have found the light at the end of the tunnel in accepting my limitations. Pointing all my sail in the same directions. Taking back the power so many thought they could stifle. Feel and feed my inner self all the self affirming affirmations I can process. Growth is never easy but it beats just staying there.
written by Just Rant Already
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