Category: childhood trauma
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Thats my title today. I take it day by day. The physical need to stay mobile matched with the mentality to just give up. A little stretch Is all I really need but cannot bring myself to doing it. I know I could have typed in a bunch of words, picked a style and voice…
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Before I Go… (March 28, 2024)
I know you all love the poetry, when its natural. I know you all agree that words play better off the tongue. Standing in front of the town bully. Bringing someone back from the brink of death. After catching the final throw and taking the team all the way. These are reasons for celebration, A…
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Why such an open book? (March 27, 2024)
If only the world could see me now. Adulting further than any of them expected. I was not going to give up. I read all about it. LIFE was bliss as long as I did as I was told. “From my point of view, life lessons do not always have to be learned firsthand.” circa…
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Say Hello. (March 24, 2024)
I think the worst part of TikTok is that I still feel ignored. Like high school all over again. Like middle school all over again, Y’all are why I yell talk. Y’all are why I feel like no one understands me. My brain was on cloud nine while info-dumping. If you stop me halfway through…
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Next Generations (March 23, 2024)
I am happy to be the me you might see. Then there is the waning need to lose myself – In a good book, a tv series or a cup of joe. I truly wish I could fix it all. Grab them all by the collar, Dust off my boots and pushed through. Dragging my…
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Info-dump (March 21, 2024)
“Just be still and read a book!” GED Prep Books California Bar Association Prep Books Legal Dictionary Hawaiian Dictionary Thesaurus “What do you want to be when you grow up?” Marine Biology Accountant Cook Physicist Teacher Bus driver Really anything in the non-fiction area was surrounded by loud children. So I hide. DSM-III-R Autobiography Mechanical…
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Twinkle Twinkle (March 20, 2024)
I found you once I can do it again The world has no idea Whats really in my head To adapt, is to survive Until you Easier done with a companion Someone to call me on my bull Tell me to sit down Look at the bigger picture Don’t let me emotions dictate my future…
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Sunrise Parade (March 19, 2024)
Golden sparkles through the night skies. Black and still. Yellow and orange start to warm the air. Violet hues sneak through, Then a stream of blues. Drops of dew shimmer back. The fog flows with the river. A chirping bird breaks the silence. The growing sun breaks the ridge. Highlights start to fade. Replaced with…
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Stumped (March 18, 2024)
I am not gonna lie, I have no idea when someone is giving me a compliment. I spent a third of my life practicing at this point because “Practice makes PERFECT.” Perfect meant I didn’t have to do it again. Perfect meant I got positive attention. circa 1997 To this day I will give way…
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Whistle (March 17, 2024)
I don’t know why you’d keep that to yourself. Save another from heartache It just makes no sense you wouldn’t want to share the bigger picture Nothing helpful in the dark Both hands tied behind my back Usually a misunderstanding On my part that is. Social cues are lost on me. Stuck guessing so instead…
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Here and Now (March 16, 2024)
Wishful thinking Breathe of fresh air Blessings in disguise Gleeful smiles Rooms full of laughter Family bonding Exploration in the concrete jungle Cheers to the adventures ahead Making the most of these experiences, together.
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Confidence (March 15, 2024)
I know what I know I have never had issues with that Too much context is my jam No need to argue with ignorance Staying confident around others is another story. Jealousy and resentment builds I don’t understand social cues and make the mistake of asking. Some people take pleasure in causing pain. Who is…
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Cope with me (March 14, 2024)
Today could never show you the truth in my thoughts Working harder and harder to find peace Between my ears that is Major Depressive Disorder is a mouthful Too many things that keep me in bed No point in starting something I can’t finish I heard it once, so I stuck with it My reserve…
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Takeaway (March 13, 2024)
The worst feeling in the world To lose something that sets you up for success When your routine is a part of your daily life Even others notice As if the world grew up around me The system works as its supposed to Oh, Community I will miss you. What movies or TV series have…
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Transition (March 12, 2024)
I am happy to announce The growth meter isn’t broken Stepping towards the brighter side of things Helping myself to something sweeter Taking a step back, Grasping at the full view. I am happy to report, I am taking in the sights. No longer ignoring the busy spaces. Feeling the need to experience What this…
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